Don’t we all have a dark side, a Mr. Hyde? A part of ourselves we
hide from others and only let out under controlled moderation? And in the city
where you live, in the shadows --- are there demons haunting you of your evil
deeds?
To be avenged…
“That the opinion of those who already think ill of me will worsen is
not my concern. I want all to know what I am capable of. I want it to be known
that betrayal is intolerable and that revenge is a master skill of mine. It
comes in phases. It takes time, which I have been given. The king of the jungle
waits for the perfect opportunity to strike. There will be no rest for my
enemies.”
~ From He Who Laughs Loudest Also Laughs Last
I realized that choosing not to fight did not make me weak. My heart forbade
me to do unto him as he did to me. I could have destroyed the one thought to be
responsible with what I had cleverly obtained through masquerade. I worried
about this dark path and my own karma. I came to a conclusion; they are not
stronger than me, they have no power over me, and I don’t have to show my teeth
to be victorious. Weakness and fear from my “opponent” started it all. I
learned my own strength; control and restraint. Walking on the corpses of my
enemies is no longer necessary to feel the sweet satisfaction revenge offers.
Knowing what I can do and letting go of that power is enough to be vindicated.
Don't we all sometimes see a sexier version of ourselves seducing us
into things like murder ("Pull the trigger, hire a digger")?
Guilt will haunt you on levels of your conscious you cannot control.
For a while, I was thinking maybe I should be less in your face,
controversial, and rebellious. I should focus more on the positive and ignore
the rest, for it wasn't good energy to put out. But to do that would mean to
suppress the talent and wit I have to rouse. Sometimes, life isn't pretty ---
and we have to face the realities and get down and dirty for progress. Can I be
more uplifting and positive energy focused… sure.
However, I shall not give up and be silent about the dark side of
life that also matters. Part of my purpose is to use my gift of wit to
challenge and change. I am a Freedom Fighter after all.
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